Personal Post – bibliobeth – the end?

Published May 18, 2019 by bibliobeth

Hi everyone! Hope you’re all well. Gosh, I don’t know where to even begin with this post. Here goes…

I’m not sure if you’ve noticed but for a little while now (perhaps since the start of the year?) I’ve been in the biggest blogging slump. I even wrote a post about it recently HERE. There’s been a number of reasons for it but at the moment, there’s a couple of things that are standing out and making my whole blogging experience not as fun anymore. I’ve recently been promoted into quite a stressful job and at the moment, it’s taking up quite a lot of brain space and time. It’s the best job I’ve ever had and I’m really loving it but it’s making it quite difficult to carry on blogging too.

I’ve been blogging now for over six years and when I first started, I absolutely adored it. It’s everything – the chance to read advance review copies, the opportunities to work with some fantastic publishers and authors but most of all, it’s the interaction with the blogging community that I’ve found the most valuable part of my experience. I’ve treasured the special moments, like blogging with my sister Chrissi Reads, making some wonderful new friends and being able to chat everything bookish with people who feel exactly the same way as I do about books. I’ve even got the chance to meet some of you at blogger events, buddy read with you and message you regularly which has given me the opportunity to get to know you not only as a blogger but as a person. I’m overwhelmed to call some of you genuine friends.

More recently, I’ve started to feel a little bit different about blogging. Please let me stress it’s NOTHING to do with the community – as I’ve already mentioned, you’re the best part! It’s a “me” thing rather than a “you” thing, I promise. Personally, every time I’ve set down to write a review, it’s not felt the same. It hasn’t been fun, I haven’t been excited about doing it and to be perfectly honest, occasionally I’ve been dreading it. As I have a busy work life at the moment, I really don’t want to be getting home and feeling like I’m still working which sadly, has turned out to be the case. Blogging is supposed to be a hobby and is meant to be fun right? If I’m not enjoying myself, why am I still pushing myself to continue?

I’ve tried different things just to check if it might be a slump. I’ve gone on hiatus, I’ve dialled down the number of review copies I accept but it hasn’t improved the situation. I’m starting to get miserable when I look at the hundreds of books (yep, hundreds!) waiting for me on my bookshelves to read. These are books I’ve been really excited about but keep getting pushed to the back of a seemingly never-ending list. The books I push to the front are books I’ve received recently and feel compelled to review because I’m a blogger.

So I thought long and hard about this and I’ve decided to give up blogging. I’m not putting this post out as a means of getting sympathy or for you guys to persuade me to come back, I’ve pretty much 99% made up my mind that this is the right decision. I want to leave that 1% there because I’d like to think I might change my mind in the future and come back, perhaps when work has calmed down or when I’ve retired (haha!). It’s funny though, I knew I had made the right decision when I felt an overwhelming sense of relief, like a weight had been lifted as soon as I had said it out loud to my sister, my blogging besties Janel @ Keeper Of Pages, Jennifer @ Tar Heel Reader and my long-suffering partner Mr B.

I’ve got a couple more review commitments that of course I will stick to – one this month, one in June and one in July. I’ve also promised to carry on my Kid-Lit and Banned Book series with Chrissi until the end of the year as our books were already agreed so you won’t be getting rid of me just yet! However, posts will be very much reduced from August onwards (just Kid-Lit and Banned Books) with a view to stopping completely at the end of December.

At the moment, I’m absolutely loving coming home from work and not having to worry about writing a review. I can settle down, watch a TV show or lose myself in my books and it feels nice. I know it’s the right decision for me right now. I did want to write this post to get it all out there and even though you’ll see posts a couple of times a month until December, I wanted to say a proper thank you and goodbye, just in case it is the end.

I want to thank you all from the bottom of my heart for all your support for my little blog over the past six years. The blogging/bookish community is the best and I’ll miss you all. I am still going to be active on Instagram and Goodreads (maybe Twitter, haven’t decided yet) so if you want to follow me over there and see what I’m up to, I’d be delighted to have you along for the ride! Thank you for the nominations for blog awards over the past couple of years which has been unbelievable and really warmed my heart. Thank you for all your likes, shares and comments and every single interaction we’ve had, no matter how small – it’s meant the world to me. Thank you for reading my reviews, sharing your own thoughts and feelings and making my time in this community so special. Thank you also to all the publishers and publicity people who’ve been kind enough to send me review copies, I’ve felt like such a lucky girl every time a package drops on my doormat!

Blogging has been such a life-altering and awesome time in my life and I’ve had an amazing and unforgettable journey. I wish EVERYONE all the best with their own blogs – you’re all incredible and I know how hard you work and how much time the whole experience takes out of your lives.

I can’t say thank you enough. Please keep in touch!

Love, Beth xx

71 comments on “Personal Post – bibliobeth – the end?

  • That made me all emotional! Thanks for your reviews and your support! Six years is incredibly long, situations change, it’s meant to be fun, not a chore, so I’m wishing you all the best with your new job, and loads of stress-free reading pleasure 😊 Take care, Beth! I’ll see you around 😘

  • So sorry to hear this Beth but I totally get where you are coming from. I hope giving up gives you some time to relax and enjoy reading more. Hopefully we will meet again…maybe we can arrange an afternoon/night out in London on weekend with Janel and Kerrie. Not book stuff, just dinner and drinks. Take care love xx

  • All the best, Beth. I am sorry to hear that you will be finishing because I honestly love your posts and your fabulous reviews.
    But blogging should never be stressful and you are right to take care of yourself. Take care and good luck!

  • Beth, reading this made me feel a little emotional. You will be greatly missed in this community, and I really hope you enjoy reading for pleasure again. I’ll give you a Goodreads add for sure 😘

  • I’m going to miss you so much!!! I’m going to have to return to instagram to stay in touch with you in some capacity. I completely understand your reasoning, though. It’s supposed to be a fun hobby, not another stressor or something you dread and when life gets so busy it does feel that way sometimes. I think you’re making the right decision as soon as it starts feeling that way. I hope you enjoy reading for fun and I’m glad it was a weight lifted for you! ♥️

  • I’ll miss you but I totally understand! If blogging is no longer fun and feels like a second job, you know it’s time to step away… I’ll be looking forward to your remaining posts and wish you all the best! ❤ xx

  • I’m going to miss your thoughtful, always well-balanced and kind reviews, Beth, and I’m so grateful I met one of my dearest friends through blogging- you.

    All that said, because you are my friend, as I’ve shared with you, I completely understand, and your happiness and good health come first.

    I look forward to all our future buddy reads and many more years of friendship, including my trip with you and Chrissi to Mr. Bs, especially the spa! ♥️ xoxoxo

    • I’m grateful for you too lovely 😊 I wasn’t lying when I said blogging has changed my life and the people I’ve met including yourself have been the best part! I KNOW we’ll stay in touch and I look forward to the day we meet in real life. 😁 I’m going to hold you to that trip to Mr B’s haha 😆 xx

  • Good luck with everything Beth and congratulations on your new job. I’ve scaled back the amount of books I’m reviewing at the moment, especially blog tour commitments because it got a bit overwhelming! X

  • If it’s right for you, then it’s the right decision. After all, you’re not actually going anywhere. You’ll still be here, right? So relax, 3njoy and maybe one day come back to blogging – or not. Whatever works for you. In the meantime, I wish you joy and laughter xx

  • Aww I completely get this and I wish you all the best Beth I’ll see you on insta and so please you’re loving your job xx

  • I’m completely with you with those feelings Beth. Last year I sadly lost my dad and have been on a complete reading slump and haven’t blogged or read anything since. It’s been a year now, and I’ve just started reading again. I’m not reviewing or blogging and the enjoyment of reading for pure escapism and pleasure is back. I wish you all the luck for the future, I’ve enjoyed our interaction and hope you continue reading without the pressure. 💕

    • I wondered where you were! I’m so, so sorry to hear about your dad, that’s awful and I really feel for you. I am really glad that you’re finding enjoyment in reading again, even if you’re not blogging, that’s all that matters. Lovely to *meet* you and if you’re ever on Instagram I’d love to catch up. Take care of yourself though 😘

  • As much as I’ve enjoyed this space and getting to know you, I’m more invested in your well being. When this becomes a chore and not a work of love, it’s definitely time to re-evaluate. I left for a year before I started my own. Now I post whenever I want, not because I have to. As I regularly write reviews on Goodreads (just my personal commitment to myself and that community), sharing it on my blog is rather painless. I don’t worry about # of followers, etc. and that allows me to breathe. Just sharing what gave me relief…in retirement!!!

    You’ve got a new job you love so go enjoy it without guilt💜 It’s a new, great chapter that deserves your full attention. Maybe you’ll be back here but if you aren’t, that’s what’s appropriate for you. Go with all the blessings I could ever wish upon you. And have fun😍

  • I’ve loved following you Beth, but I know how hard it can be to juggle a fulfilling, if stressful job with the demands of blogging. If it’s not fun, then you are making the right decision. Best of luck to you xx

  • You will be missed…by me and soo many others! However, your happiness and health are definitely a priority. Reading must be fun first! Your reviews and posts are always excellent, You really are such a kind and thoughtful person. I’ve enjoyed our interactions.
    I wish you all the best and look forward to keeping in touch with you on Goodreads and Instagram.
    Hugs and best wishes <3xo

    • Ah that’s so nice thank you! 😘 you’re right I need reading to feel more like pleasure and less like a chore. I’ve had a wonderful time but when it stops being fun, you know it’s time to stop. 😕

  • You will certainly be missed Beth but I understand. You need to do what is best for you and if blogging isn’t fun anymore, it’s not worth it. I will ensure to keep up with your posts on IG though. Take care and all the best x

  • Aww, Beth this made me cry. You’re one of the closest friends that I’ve made in the 2 years that I’ve been blogging, and I’ll miss you terribly. But with that said, I completely understand as I’ve been feeling the exact same way since April and have no idea what to do about it. I dread writing every review, cry almost every day knowing the amount of writing, reviewing, etc that I have to do, and it’s not fun at all. I just don’t know what to do about it. I’ll make sure to keep in touch with you in IG, as I don’t want to lose touch! xoxo ❤

      • It’s okay; I’ve been having a tough time lately with life in general and haven’t been happy blogging for a long time to be honest, longer than 2 months really, but I’ve just plunged on. Things have just steamrolled lately until I’ve realized how much I truly am miserable. I’ll send you a DM tomorrow if I get a chance, but I definitely want to talk to you. I just wish I didn’t feel so sad about it all…😢 Even reading brings me no joy anymore because all I can do is think about how I have to review it, and that’s killing me since reading has always been my stress-reliever. Overwhelmed is not strong enough for how I feel right now. I’m so glad we will! I would miss you otherwise!

  • Oh doll! I’m selfishly very sad, of course, because I’ve loved following your reviews and chatting to you in the comments BUT I also completely understand, and I’m excited for you freeing up this space in your life for new and wonderful relaxing things. I received some great advice a little while ago: whenever you have too much on your plate, let go of whichever one makes you feel dread. If you feel relief when you let it go, you’ve made the right call. It hasn’t steered me wrong yet, and it sounds like it’s right for you too. Hoping I’ll still see you around on Instagram and Twitter and other corners! ❤️

    • Thank you so much lovely 😊 I’ve loved our little chats too and I’ll definitely still be around on other platforms! You’re totally right about the feeling relief when you let it go part, I do know I’ve made the right choice. Even this weekend I panicked momentarily thinking of time I have to put aside to write reviews. Then I thought wait a minute, I don’t have to worry about that anymore! My weekends are completely my own to do whatever the hell I like! 😂😂😂

  • I never know how people are able to keep up with all their review commitments – it seems so stressful to me!!! When I started blogging, I knew that I did NOT want to review ARCs – way too much pressure. Hopefully winding down your blogging will help make readings fun again. And maybe someday, blogging will sound fun again, too. 🙂

    Best wishes on your life changes, and hopefully we will still see you around the blogosphere from time to time. 🙂

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