Personal Post – Chronic Illness, Blog Slumps, New Job(s), Stressful And Exciting Times!

Published March 19, 2019 by bibliobeth

Hey everyone, hope you’re all doing well. I thought I’d write a little catch up post to explain why I’ve been a bit quiet or MIA on bibliobeth recently. It’s been for a variety of reasons really that have kind of merged into one and stopped me posting as much as I would have liked. I’m trying not to beat myself up too much about it but I can’t help but get the nagging feeling that I have such an enormous backlog of reviews to write and if I had been on top of things like I anticipated mid March 2019, I would have almost cleared that backlog and be able to participate in many more fun stuff like memes.

First of all, my chronic illness has been up, down, upside down and back round again. (If you want to read more, check out a personal post I did HERE). To be fair, it has been a lot better than it was in the past so I don’t want to complain too much and considering the extra personal life events I’ve had recently, it’s been a hell of a lot better than I could have expected with the addition of these stressful times. In addition to my fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue and hypermobility, I have now been diagnosed with hyperthyroidism caused by Graves’ Disease so that hasn’t helped matters but luckily at the moment, my thyroid is currently stable so there has definitely been an improvement in that area. Fingers crossed it stays that way.

Then there’s the job situation. I started a new job near to my home in September last year, purely for health reasons so that I wouldn’t have to commute into London and back (three hours a day). I started the job and everything was going okay until I got offered an even better job in the same Trust (I work for the NHS) but in a different department and building five minutes walk away from the current job. I had to give a presentation as part of my interview and I don’t know about you guys but presentations are my worst thing ever. Seriously, I’m a mess with them. I have severe anxiety issues and the thought of talking in front of other people is my idea of a nightmare.

In fact, I got a lower mark in my first degree because I couldn’t do the presentation and had to take beta blockers from the doctor to get through the presentation in my Masters degree. That’s how bad I am. I was absolutely determined that if I wanted my dream job (which was a dream…. 9-5, no night or weekend shifts!) I needed to get through this and just DO IT. Well, I got the job but had to give twelve weeks notice so I didn’t actually start the new job until the beginning of March, a mere six months after I moved jobs from London the first time!!

I had already been aware that there was a Senior role going to made available in this new job at some point as the current Senior was due to retire but I thought I might have a chance to settle in and find my feet before going for it sometime in the summer. I was wrong. The Senior wants to retire a little earlier so on my first day at my new job, there I was – ANOTHER presentation and interview. And guess what? Less than three hours after I started my new job they offered me the promotion to the Senior role.

You’re probably confused right? So to make it clearer – I started a new job in September last year, interviewed for another one before Christmas in a different department, started it in March this year and within a few hours was offered a promotion! I’m now part of the senior management team in a department that focuses on bowel cancer screening and I couldn’t be happier.

SO…..all of this nonsense going on with my health/job/personal life etc has made my blogging quite sporadic. It’s the reason why I’ve been especially quiet since the beginning of this year but also, all of the stress and uncertainty of everything also put me into a major blogging slump. I just haven’t feel motivated to blog at all which is a real shame. I’ve still managed to read an absolute ton which I’m very happy about (I’d be so cross if my reading suffered, haha!) but when I think about sitting down and writing a post my brain is just so tired, I don’t want to even think about doing it.

I’m really hoping things will be back on track now it’s calmed down a bit and I’m in my new post but I am worried that things like my poor health and new work responsibilities will lead to my posting being a bit erratic from time to time. I think I have to accept that I might not be able to blog daily like I’d like to and if I need to take a week off, I should be able to give myself permission to do that without feeling guilty!

I’m still loving reading all my fellow bloggers posts out there and I apologise if I’ve been slow to like, share or comment on them. (I blame Twitter jail too, haha!). Finally – to whomever nominated me for Best Blog at the Annual Bloggers Bash Awards THANK YOU!!. It means the absolute world to me, especially when I’ve been so inconsistent lately.

What I’d like to know from you guys is:

Have you ever been in a blogging slump and what did you do to motivate yourself again?

Do you find life just sometimes gets in the way of being a consistent blogger?

It would be great to hear your thoughts in the comments below. 🙂

Love Beth xx

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42 comments on “Personal Post – Chronic Illness, Blog Slumps, New Job(s), Stressful And Exciting Times!

  • I have and I’m sure many others have as well. What I did was read books from my own TBR of which I knew upfront I wouldn’t review them. Just gave myself a break. We’re not machines, we’re human. And sometimes, for whatever reason, you just need to take a step back and just breathe. Everything will fall back into place at some point. And never feel bad or guilty, which is easier said than done, I know. But nobody is going to get angry at you and the books aren’t going nowhere.

    Super excited about your promotion! Congratulations! You’ll kick some serious behind, I know you will. 😘

  • Congratulations on your promotion that’s amazing and well done on doing both those presentations too!
    I had a blog and reading slump in my first year and it was awful and looking back I joined in with loads of memes and book tags because I didn’t have any reviews to post. Try not to let it get you down book blogging is supposed to be a hobby and not a full-time job. Xx

  • That sounds amazing about your job and promotion, congratulations!! I’m right there with you in giving presentations…I couldn’t be more nervous speaking in front of people and somehow managed teaching in companies for a few years, heaven only knows how but I was a daily nervous wreck. But it does prove something to yourself, what you’re capable of. I’m glad you could get such a good position and I hope things get settled soon!

    I’m so sorry about your health issues. Chronic illnesses are just the worst. Sending you lots of positive thoughts, and blogging shouldn’t stress you at all. I go through slumps too, partly why I never push myself to post more than a couple of times a week. Even that feels stressy enough sometimes. It should be something you enjoy above all, and if it’s not that, step back until it is.

    • Wow! How did you manage to do it as a job? I would collapse with nerves! 😅 You’re right, I did prove to myself I could do it if I pushed myself and now I’m *slightly* less scared if I have to do it in future so yaaay! 💪🏻 Thank you so much for your lovely words, I’ll definitely step back if I’m not enjoying it or if it feels like a job. 😘

      • It was AWFUL and I don’t know why I ever thought I could do it in the first place. I drank a lot of wine and I don’t mean that in a cutesy fun way, it was a terrible coping mechanism, but I just had so much stress and anxiety almost daily that I didn’t know how to manage. I don’t recommend pushing yourself THAT far out of the comfort zone! I’m so happy it’s in the past (Plus I work at home now, which has helped me recoup something of myself that was strained during that time, it’s helped a lot!)

  • Best wishes, Beth 🙂
    I have had a couple of interviews which required presentations. They didn’t go well as I’ve always had problems presenting (I didn’t know about beta blockers at the time either). Well done on your job(s)!

  • I’m sorry to hear about what you are going through health-wise. I’m glad to hear things have been a little better in that regard.
    CONGRATS on your promotion! That’s fantastic!
    Try not to stress (I know…easier said than done) about blogging, reviewing etc. I had to take some time away from blogging towards the end of 2018 (I have some of the same health issues and also had to have a couple of surgeries). So although it was tough and I felt guilty, it was really what I needed. I was still reading and taking notes now and then for future posts/reviews, but I was also reading some books that would be fine if I didn’t review for a long time (or ever even). I ended up taking more time off than I planned but when I came back I felt a lot better about blogging. So really try to take the time you need and go easy on yourself. Your blog, friends, books, and followers will wait for you. Your health and happiness are so important, Beth. Best wishes and congrats again! You rock!! ❤ xo

  • I’m just SO happy to see you when I see you, and I’m grateful in the midst of all this you still make time to buddy read. ♥️ Another huge congrats on the NEW JOB! And sending lots of love and positive thought for the health stuff. You just need some time to adjust and transition and you’ll get your groove back. I just know it. ♥️ xoxox

    • Why thank you my dear 😘 I’m always happy to buddy read with you, it keeps me sane amidst all the madness 😜😂 I think my groove is lurking somewhere in the background so very much looking forward to it’s return! 😆

  • Congrats on your new job! I am sorry about your health concerns. Glad to see you are doing better. I am in a bit of a blogging rut but mostly because my family keeps me busy. I use blogging a lot to distract me with stress due my son’s illness and when things are better I tend to blog less. I do get worried when life gets in the way and I can’t keep up liking and commenting on blogs. But we can only do what we can do and be kind to ourselves. Taking care of ourselves and our family has to come first! I am sending you positive well wishes!

    • I’m sorry to hear about your son’s illness ☹️ it’s so hard when life happens isn’t it? You’re right, family and ourselves is the most important thing. I need to keep remembering that. Thank you so much 😘

  • You are my superstar! I’ve said it before but I’ll say it again… you inspire me. You’ve had so much thrown your way and you don’t let it bring you down. It takes an incredibly strong person to do that. You’re made of tough stuff. As I always say, your blog will always be here for you. It’s your little space of the internet, you are free to do what you like! 🙂 You do so well with juggling it anyway.

    A massive well done to you for the job! You the boss!!! You’ll be a kind and compassionate boss. I just know it.

    LOVE ❤

    • 😭😭😭 I’m so very lucky to have a sister like you. Thank you for everything – in the past, now and always. As you say – my blog my rules right?! 😂 Love you 😘😘😘

  • Sending you big hugs Beth and congratulations on your promotion. Try not to stress about your blog I very often take a week off every now and then, it gives me more time to read and when you work full time something has to give. I always find when I take an extended break the traffic to my blog increases 😂🙈 congratulations on the best blog nomination too 😘😘

  • Huge congratulations on your promotion and so sorry you have health concerns but what ever you do, don’t stress about the blog. We all have slumps and looking after yourself is much more important. Sending good vibes and take care xx

  • Love this post Beth and congratulations on your promotions. You achieve so much despite chronic illness – you should be proud! Blogging is a hobby I think so although it’s tricky try not to put pressure on yourself there xx

  • Congratulations on the new job(s)! 😀
    I hit a blogging (and reading) slump at the end of Feb / early March, partly driven by things going on, but also just because I needed a bit of a break, I think. I’m getting back into the swing of things now, but the only advice I have is that if you need a break, take one. We’ll still all be here when you get back x

  • I relate to this post soooooo much! I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia last year along with bursitis in several of my joints (the hips are the worst, which of course affects my lower back as well). There were some days that it was hard to get out of bed. Put that together with a super stressful job, and you know. Bad times. I was barely reading at all back then, and never blogging. Luckily, I was able to get a new job, which I started back in August, and have since also gotten a promotion. The new job has a much easier atmosphere and nowhere NEAR as much pressure, which has helped some of my fibro symptoms since a lot of them were brought on my stress. I still have bad days, of course, but they are nowhere near as severe. And less stress makes me feel better about everything in my life, especially reading. I made a goal for 2019 to get back into blogging, and I think I’ve done pretty well so far. Reading other blogs helps me keep going, just because the book blogging community is so awesome.

    Congratulations on the new job and take all the time you need to take care of YOU! We’ll all still be here when you get back (unless we are also taking breaks, in which case, we’ll see you again eventually). 🙂

    • I’m so sorry to hear that you’re a fibro warrior too!! It’s awful isn’t it? Especially when you’re trying to hold down a full time job and do something for yourself like blogging. 😅 That’s amazing news about your promotion too, sounds like it’s going to be so much better for you! Same with me, it’s going to be much less on my feet which can only be a good thing. Thank you so much for your kind words and take care of yourself too 😘

  • Goodness gracious, doll! With all you’ve had going on, it’s a wonder you’ve been able to blog at ALL – good on you for at least trying to keep a bit of that forward momentum going, it’s more than most of us would do! As much as we all love hearing from you and reading your blog, I’m sure every single one of us (if it’s not presumptuous of me to talk for your many fans) would say that we’re more than happy for you to take the time and brain-space you need to get well and settled. My only “trick” for staying out of a blogging slump is whenever I’m feeling particularly motivated for it and I’ve got the time, I schedule out as much as I can in advance, so whenever the slump/time-constraints come along (and they always do), there’s already posts in the bank ready to go up. Wishing you all the best dearest, and cheering you on!

  • I’m still catching up on a backlog of blog posts, so I am just now reading this – such an emotional rollercoaster of a post!! Wonderful news about the jobs and presentations working out, sadness about your health being lousy, and empathy on the blogging thing – sometimes you just aren’t feeling it!! Been there for sure!

    Whenever I’m not really in the mood for blogging, I end up doing minireviews, like your pin-it reviews. It helps clear the backlog without nearly as much energy or thought!! I always feel a little bad because sometimes there are awesome books in the mix, but it’s a hobby, not a job, so whatever gets you feeling less stressed about it!!

    Anyway, hopefully things are going in a positive direction (I’m sure I’ll find out in some later blog posts that I haven’t read yet haha). ❤

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